JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

I haven’t tried to negected my blog, I’ve been caught up in school work, exams and sorting out many things currently going on in my life, I can honestly say, I’ve reached happiness, I don’t give a fuck about whats going on around me, I may be in some fucked up situations right now but i can honestly say, I’m a happy person, I don’t know what caused this, I think its just from the little chats I’ve had with mates, Jay has been a great “Cousin” to me, You’re a legend and we both go through shit but we’re strong, I don’t need love or material objects to feel happy, I feel pure, I feel myself, I’m going to follow my dreams and not let anyone ruin what I’ve got in my head, I’m finally a better person to myself, I’ve accepted heaps more and I think I’ve got another view on my life and everything that impacts it. Its not one of those bullshit everything happens for a reasons life, I’m just trying to live life for myself and put myself first for once instead of being fucked over by friends or love, I’ve realised I’ll never get anywhere with the friends I’ve got and that if people can’t accept me for who I am then they obviously aren’t worth it, I’ve actually made new friends at school and am becoming a way better inner person, I think my next step is to kick these Anti-Depressants.

I actually have a girlfriend right now, I’d say we’re serious, We say the occasional “I love You” or anything lovey, We’re just trying to take things slow and see how everything works out, I’m not pushing for anything, I’m a happy person and so is she.

Lately I’ve been trying to record my own vocals and actually produce several songs, I’ve had some trouble though, Trying to record with just a cheap microphone, I don’t have anything fancy and it seems to be really killing the sounds, You can hear my computer fan or it gets distorted. I’ll keep working at it and i hope i’ll be bringing out my own songs soon.

I don’t really have much more to add, I’m hoping to finish some exams and essays, Then i’ll be off to Queensland for school camp.