JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

Only afew days to my birthday and I’m not really fussed, last few have been pretty crap and I really have nothing to look forward to. It’s a day and it’s one step closer to me having to become independant and try to take on the day to day responsibilities any adult faces. It’s not something I’ve really given thought to because right now I focus on living day by day and its proving hard when I need to make decisions for future careers and makes my dreams look unrealistic. I haven’t lost hope and everyday, I think about it, working hard and preparing myself to become better. I lost so much work because of my bronchitis and now I can finally look forward and know that I’ve got some tough times ahead until I reach the level I was at again but I’m happy and very willing. New post coming in afew days with something thats going on… Need to stop writing so I can actually think to myself and maybe even figure out whats going on with a very special girl. <3

When Google was founded in 1998 I doubt they ever thought that they’d become the largest search engine in the world or create such things as Adsense, chrome or become a billion dollar company.  Our lives are surrounded by technology and when you’re looking for something and ironically google it, they always seem to have a solution. Looking for email? use gmail Looking for videos? use youtube. Looking at developing sites? Use adsense. Looking at stalking finding someones house? Use googlemaps. They’re all great products and props to google for it but how far is this going to go?

Google Adsense for Domains has been around for a long time and if you had your names parked with google, you obviously had a excellent portfolio. People who couldn’t get into Adsense for domains or didn’t know about it went with parking companies and were feeding them with huge commissions and everything was happy as larry. Then google went along and introduced Adsense for domains to nearly any US member. They could now have access to googles system without a ‘middle man’ that had their own system using googles feeds. When cutting out a middle man, you’re cutting out the percentage the parking company was taking and earning even more, whats stopping you from moving your names to adsense for domains. Parking may be nearly dead and development will always be the key but I’d gladly park with google and cut out a parking company all together.

The question I ask myself from this though, which is my main reason for this post is Where will google stop? Domains are a HUGE game and when the market is healthy, you can see many $xxx,xxx sales a week. Ponder this thought, what’s stopping google from running a domain platform to escrow domains? They’ve easily got the market to help escrow names, the sales you can see week to week are enough of a reason in my eyes to get into such a business, whats another support department going to hurt? I will most likely never happen but with some of the directions they’ve taken (android) it’s possible.

Before I get into a huge blog entry, I just want to say Happy New Year and I hope all your goals come true.

I had afew brief ideas for blogs I wanted to write but didn’t really get around to writing them or able to create enough mental content to feel confident enough to write about something that come to mind. I always seem to be running out of time lately, I always seem to burn out or let time fly by and I have to get to other things like sleep so I can try balance a social life (Yeah.. right) I’m lucky enough to have a huge topic I can write about, which all readers can reflect on. My blog is a year old on 10.01.09 and I want to take some personal time to reflect the events of my year and things that I’ve experienced and went through.

I can’t really say I’ve had the best year and I can’t say I took advantage of everything I could have but we all fuck up things in life and mine is hard to explain.. In one way I took things to seriously but in another way, I took life to easy and just let shit ride by. I’ve taken relationships far to seriously and now I’ve begun to see a light but I don’t know if anything will change in the near future that’s to do with relationships because as much as I’m stable, I don’t want to end up dependant of someone or being commited. I think we all know what love is in our own little way but isn’t loving someone actually just becoming dependant of them? I don’t need that shit in my life and I certainly don’t want to be dependant of someone who could end up being completely different to me.. You’d be suprised how many people you could date and once you break up.. how different they become and just.. how much you regret what you had because you realise they’re actually just an asshole or you got the completely wrong take of them. Screw blogging about love anyway, I’ve suffered enough from it in 2008 with fucked up relationships that I’ve got nothing out of. I should be putting all my energy into schooling, I’ve got no clue what I’m going to end up as but I know that I’ll have a clear idea once I’ve got to year 12 and sat my exams. I don’t have to make decisions straight away because afterall, this is for the rest of my life and happiness. I want to follow my dreams but I want to be proud of what I’ve achieved, even if it’s only a Year12 pass. I just hope this year will be different and I’ll actually do well in school.

I’m actually proud to call this my blog, I look back on newer entries and I see that I’m improving with writing and now I actually feel like a ‘pure soul’ I’ve improved myself by just living life for me. I think music has been a huge influence for me and even writing my own powerful words into lyrics, I can power words into anything I want and even give myself a life lesson by putting words into something I can take from them. I doubt music is this powerful for many people because they listen to it for the hip beat or the catchy hook but it’s helped me a lot and I plan to help others with my own music and own musical ideas which I legally cannot reveal on this blog…

I know this year will have it’s ups and downs but I know that I’m going to handle it to the best of my ability and I’m going to stay true to myself because I only need to look out for myself and care for others, I’m going to make myself proud and even though I won’t achieve everything I want this year. I can only push myself to the limit and know that I’ve done my best and not get myself down over such peddy shit like ‘I could have done better’.

Just before I go, you should follow me on Twitter if you aren’t already and I’d also like to thank Shane from Success Circuit for featuring me in his eBook “Cited Success: Learn from the masters’ and praising me as a ‘master’ I don’t see myself as one but I’m honored to be praised by such a bright young man who’s got a great future ahead of him. Thanks a lot Shane and you should check out his site.

I don’t need to be what anyone expects me to be in life, I can take whatever route in life I want and nobody can question me because I want to live life for me and not have to be caught up in the moment of bullshit that holds this earth from further developing our social skills and being able to make where we live a better place.

I’m going to see the world by screaming lyrics into a mic just because it’s my dream and something I know I’m going to achieve when I’m older. Peoples expectations of me are worthless, I don’t care what you think I should amount to. I don’t care if you dislike the genre, I just don’t give a shit about what you think of the lyrics. People need to take the time to actually look at these lyrics and realise, wow, they’ve got the definition of the world by the balls and their trying to show the flaws like a blue light in a motel room.

People these days are to caught up with 2-3 catchy hooks which are made to get your attention. I hope ‘Pop’ groups/artists pay for their lyrics because I’d be fucking ashamed to call them my own, they’re all the same breakup/love/getting drunk sort of song that requires no talent what so ever to create. People should be able to write from the heart or their head, songs should just be a way to tell a story.

I’ve got plenty of stuff written in notebooks and on my computer that I’ve put my heart into and that I’m proud of, I’m young but I’m learning my life lessons now and I’m learning some of the most important shit. Never depend on someone to get you somewhere in live because they’re just going to fail and never try to live up to someones expectations or fake who you are to change something in your life. It makes you fake and what’s the point when the real you never acheived it. You got to stay true to yourself because all that matters in the end is you, your true friends and how you reflect on who you are as a person. We all fuck up in life but how you deal with the situation is what makes you truly unique.

It doesn’t matter if I never become famous or a well known musician, I never set out for such a thing. I just want to be able to take peoples breath away with my words and be able to make people think, I don’t have any other dreams. I don’t want to be ruled by a boss and I hope to never have to be enslaved with a shit desk job that’ll make me unhappy, I’ve been through my depression stage. Now’s the time for me to really shine and be who I want to be.

I love all my readers && Merry Christmas

I sometimes get an idea for a blog now and then but never get around to writing it, I’m really stuck for words lately, I’ve got some shit going on and it’s getting pretty serious. I need to smarten up my english or next year I’m fucked for school. I can barely structure a sentence let alone write one. My english teacher pretty much reduced me to tears on parent teacher interviews night because I realised really just how bad I’m going and how I really need help.

Work sucks at the moment because I really want to make more money and I’m getting really shit shifts, I’m sick of lending my mum money aswell. I just want to save for a new computer and a guitar. Why is it so hard? :’( It makes me feel so bad If I don’t lend her money, makes me feel responsible for things she can’t afford.

Gah!