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Anti-Depressants are weird.
Posted by James | Posted in Life | Posted on 17-01-2008
They seem to show no effect but make you feel empty? You feel alone and they really seem to make me agitated? I noticed just sitting by myself thinking, I’d get agitated about upcoming events in my life but if i’m doing something, i sort of can’t think of my future and what its going to behold, I used to be able to? It sort of mellows you to not think, I can’t really judge though, I haven’t been on them long enough to feel the full effects.
I just got to stick this through and have the people closet around me to help support me.
I start school in 13-14 days and i know this is going to majorly shit me but i can’t really
do anything about it and that i’ve got to put up with it.
The shopping centre near my school is meant to open in afew months so soon i should
have a job and i’ll be-able to save up and be ready to move out. Hopefully things will become less stressful and i’ll be-able to live in peace with my darling Amber, We’ve already got alot of the furniture and bills/money sorted out, Just need to save up and then we’ll be on our way to happiness 
My sister comes back Tuesday which is going to become a real pain in the ass because
alot of the the time shes a inconsiderate loud mouth pain in the ass - but hey, You’ve got to deal with shit like that.
I also pick up my school books on Tuesday then i’ll hopefully get my new school uniform on Wednesday
It all seems to be happening in one sense but i want it to go faster so i can just work my
ass off for the things i want most in my life 
soon enough ;]
i love you <3
Anti depressants suck, I’ve been on and off them for years. One of the worst was Paxil. When I was on it, I had a tendency to do careless things and snap over the littlest things. It wasnt uncommon for me to stay up 5 or 6 days at a time (I’ve gone 11 before), party from Thursday evening until Sunday night / Monday morning, have 2 or 3 random girls a weekend, get in a fight or two…. It really was a horrible thing. I’m damn lucky that treatment was eventually able to stabilize my condition, and for the most part I’m med free now. I’m also damn lucky I didn’t catch anything from all those chicks.
-Exponent