JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

Before I get into a huge blog entry, I just want to say Happy New Year and I hope all your goals come true.

I had afew brief ideas for blogs I wanted to write but didn’t really get around to writing them or able to create enough mental content to feel confident enough to write about something that come to mind. I always seem to be running out of time lately, I always seem to burn out or let time fly by and I have to get to other things like sleep so I can try balance a social life (Yeah.. right) I’m lucky enough to have a huge topic I can write about, which all readers can reflect on. My blog is a year old on 10.01.09 and I want to take some personal time to reflect the events of my year and things that I’ve experienced and went through.

I can’t really say I’ve had the best year and I can’t say I took advantage of everything I could have but we all fuck up things in life and mine is hard to explain.. In one way I took things to seriously but in another way, I took life to easy and just let shit ride by. I’ve taken relationships far to seriously and now I’ve begun to see a light but I don’t know if anything will change in the near future that’s to do with relationships because as much as I’m stable, I don’t want to end up dependant of someone or being commited. I think we all know what love is in our own little way but isn’t loving someone actually just becoming dependant of them? I don’t need that shit in my life and I certainly don’t want to be dependant of someone who could end up being completely different to me.. You’d be suprised how many people you could date and once you break up.. how different they become and just.. how much you regret what you had because you realise they’re actually just an asshole or you got the completely wrong take of them. Screw blogging about love anyway, I’ve suffered enough from it in 2008 with fucked up relationships that I’ve got nothing out of. I should be putting all my energy into schooling, I’ve got no clue what I’m going to end up as but I know that I’ll have a clear idea once I’ve got to year 12 and sat my exams. I don’t have to make decisions straight away because afterall, this is for the rest of my life and happiness. I want to follow my dreams but I want to be proud of what I’ve achieved, even if it’s only a Year12 pass. I just hope this year will be different and I’ll actually do well in school.

I’m actually proud to call this my blog, I look back on newer entries and I see that I’m improving with writing and now I actually feel like a ‘pure soul’ I’ve improved myself by just living life for me. I think music has been a huge influence for me and even writing my own powerful words into lyrics, I can power words into anything I want and even give myself a life lesson by putting words into something I can take from them. I doubt music is this powerful for many people because they listen to it for the hip beat or the catchy hook but it’s helped me a lot and I plan to help others with my own music and own musical ideas which I legally cannot reveal on this blog…

I know this year will have it’s ups and downs but I know that I’m going to handle it to the best of my ability and I’m going to stay true to myself because I only need to look out for myself and care for others, I’m going to make myself proud and even though I won’t achieve everything I want this year. I can only push myself to the limit and know that I’ve done my best and not get myself down over such peddy shit like ‘I could have done better’.

Just before I go, you should follow me on Twitter if you aren’t already and I’d also like to thank Shane from Success Circuit for featuring me in his eBook “Cited Success: Learn from the masters’ and praising me as a ‘master’ I don’t see myself as one but I’m honored to be praised by such a bright young man who’s got a great future ahead of him. Thanks a lot Shane and you should check out his site.