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KnivesForAPro.com – Upgrade

I’m going to be upgrading Knivesforapro.com over the next couple of weeks with new features, some of the site will be redesigned and some will be completely removed, traffic isn’t what I want it to be and I want to be able to blog like I used too, I’m hoping to start writing a heap more rants and actually get fired up and finish a rant, I’ve got some saved as drafts but they’re just not brutal enough for me to post, I really want to hit the nail on the head with the rants that I want to post.

I’ve got some great concepts that I’ll be putting on this blog, I haven’t really got anything made yet but I’ve got some tests done on a private blog and I’m liking my ideas so far, I’m hoping to get some of the visual work done and put onto the blog before I go any further, I haven’t got anything set in stone but what I’m thinking and what I’m going to do will end up great and giving this site such a better overall look and feel.

Anyway, before I can finish working on my blog and getting it all done, I’ve got to get the rest of this school work done and finished, I’m so fucking behind! >:(

I can’t write much…. Im failing year 10…. Sorry.

I need to get back on track and then I can keep blogging, I’ve got a great topic that’s aching to be bitched about!

I’ve been working flat out because where I work has just opened and people are going fucking crazy over a brand new shopping centre, it’s just a yawn to me because I’ve seen it so many times before it was open, it’s great being able to work there now though, Making money and being able to help people, I’m working hard and I can feel it in my muscles, I’ve worked all weekend and spent some time with friends, I’ve got a shift today (Sunday) in about 2 hours. I love going to work, nothing else matters and I just seem to focus on work. It’s great!

If I keep working and getting more shifts, I’ll be-able to buy my phone sooner ! I’m looking at a HTC Diamond but I want to see how MSN works on it and how well the keypad works. Looks like a great phone though.

I’m off to get ready for work, I’ll post a blog tonight or tomorrow about how my life is going.

The last few days have fucking sucked, I’ve hit rock bottom in my opinion and my depression is doing more then sneaking back up on me, It’s really effecting me and how I am, even people around me are noticing the effects and the toll it’s taking on me, I can’t really pin point the problem, everything is just getting ontop of me and it’s taking it’s toll, I fucking hate being depressed and I just want to be happy.

I’ve felt so alone the last few days, I’m pushing myself away from things that I love and things that I love doing, I’ve suffered from headaches all week and haven’t really felt myself, I just want to give up…

Since I’ve been working a lot lately, I’ve been able to save money and I’ve always put off making songs because I don’t have a guitar, I’m pretty close to being able to afford a good guitar and I’m thinking about buying one so I can actually produce some songs.

Not sure what I’ll buy yet but I’m pumped and I’m going to start writing again, I’ve already got afew ideas, now to turn them into something.

I’ll post some lyrics/vocal recordings soon!