JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

I said I’d post this nearly a month ago, I’ve finally got some me time right now and I want to spend it writing a blog, I like keeping it up to date because I’ve had many people asking me about doing this more because they’re interested in my topics, So here’s a promised topic.. My views on life.

I know that life isn’t easy, I’m not a religious person and I do not believe in second chances, I think if you’ve hurt someone then you’ve ruined what you had between you and the person because things will never be the same again. Whenever I hurt a friend, I don’t believe I should be forgiven because that’s shooting my own beliefs in the face. I see the world has many religious people out there and I respect their beliefs but I really cannot stand if someone tries to convert me, I’ll listen to your views but It doesn’t mean I’ll start believing what you say, We all need to have our own opinion and I don’t intend on living my life by a book when I can easily tell right and wrong for myself. I don’t see swearing as such a bad thing, I don’t overuse swear words though, especially around older generations because I feel that in this day and age, we’ve sadly adapted to it and that’s now never going to change. I don’t really care about global warming or how fucked the world is, I’m only living in it and It really doesn’t fuss me.

The bit i’m going to write about now, it’s a complete fucking cunt and breaks your heart or cuts you deep inside. Friends or someone you date that keeps close with you for sex, money, to feel loved or to feel better about themselves, this really fucking shits me because if you’re dating a girl and you know shit is sliding down hill, you try to fix it, you could spend nights with it really getting to you. You question them if they’re losing love then they end up having a go at you because you don’t believe that they love you then end up dumping you afew days later when they’ve dragged you through some more fucking pain. Any person who does this, does fucking not deserve to be able to breathe and I really hope in their serious relationship where they think the person is one that they get treated like shit and really fucking hurt because innocent people don’t fucking deserve that.

I’ve got 2 great devices to ramble on about today, First device is Skype™ BETA 4.0 – I’m a pretty big skype user for business and personal. I was browsing the skype website so I could run Skype on my new phone when I purchased it and noticed that they had a BETA out, I was very excited to try this new version because I wanted to see how they were going to change skype. I downloaded and installed the Skype better and was fulled with smiles, It was brand new looking, It was easy to use and kept everything in one neat window. I begin using skype how I usually do and was very happy with how everything was easily findable, how you could easily click between conversation on the main window whilst being in a call or even being able to flawlessly able to view the users details in the same window with one quick click, I think the Skype developers have done great and I haven’t seen any bugs as of yet, I’ve had the program installed for several days and It’s gone through several business calls overseas, several personal calls and easily send text messages just like a chat with a contact, all you need is the number in your contact list and you’re ready to go. Now for my second piece of technology, I bought myself a Xbox 360 arcade, I know it’s not the best xbox on the market but I’ve finally got one and can call it my own, I’ve only borrowed a game off a mate, been playing gta4 like crazy, I’ll get some photos of it soon.

Off to play GTA4!

I’m Sitting here right now with Jade and we’re just casually socalizing whilst watching The Cat In The Hat. She’s staying the night and we will both most likely not sleep, It’s currently 2:23am and we’re both wide awake with caffiene flowing thru our systems.

This week I’ve had to face the challenge of going through what I’m going to do for next year and what I want to select for school, right now this is proving a mystery because my school is forcing you to take a structured path that you may not really want to take, they’re not keeping our options open and making us stick with one stream, thus making it hard to make a decision.

Currently I’m being pushed to choose one of these streams in exactly a week, I do not want to be pushed into a stream because I’d like to keep my options open by doing a mix yet my school wont allow it. I hate maths yet I know it’ll most likely be needed, you can easily make it up in your exams or outcomes (you’re accessed on your entry score) yet they’re pushing you into all kinds of subjects that are a joke and aren’t even really offering what I want. They wont offer music and many other specialist classes because they don’t have the numbers.

I’m looking at a business degree and focusing on music whilst I take business, even if I can’t follow my dreams, I’d love to have my own label and be able to make others dreams come true.

I sit at school, In class, surrounded people that are nothing like me, people who judge people like me as emos, who cut themselves, who listen to ‘depressing’ music. I’m so much different to everyone and It makes me want to give up, I’m not a slave to my myspace page and couldn’t give two shits about it. People judge so easily when you’re a teenager, we don’t think about others or other situations we’ve been in, we’ve all had shit parts in life and we all deal with it, get the fuck over whatever stereotypes that are implanted in your head and accept people for who they fucking are.

I see so many people in life that are treated like shit, my friend Zach is dating a girl called Em and she puts him through so much shit, I’m pretty sure I’ve hugged him 3-4 times this week just because his stupid fucking girlfriend.

I wish I could just drop out and face the normal world. I know I can’t give up though, the most important thing is you only focus on what you think of yourself and what you want to be.

What a long weekend……

Had most of the family down, the same old fighting happened and the same old judgemental people sat around and seemed to be opinionated about everything, If something was out of place in the house, we’d hear about it, If you couldn’t see your face in the tiles, they were dirty, if you had one hair on the floor, the whole house needed to be cleaned again. It shits me, couldn’t you atleast say shit behind our backs and not infront of us, for fuck sake. We try our best and all humans have faults yet you can easily pick up on ours, how about I pick up on yours and we’ll see how you feel?

Sorry for the rant, I had a shit weekend.