JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

Many people stereotype me as an emo because I have long hair, because i’m emotional or listen to “Emo music”

How can music not be “Emo” all music is emotional, all music has a reason behind it, even if you can’t see it, its relevant to writer of the song, it may be a current issue in their life or something that they’ve just dealt with. It’s a creative way to release emotions that may be hard to open up about.

According to Urban Dictionary, This is the meaning of “EMO”

What about singers like Amy Winehouse, Brittney spears – They’ve both got songs that are emotional, Does that make them emo? Maybe you should look at some of your own playlists and search some of your artists lyrics and next time you might think twice about calling a kid emo because he listens to an emotional band or artists, how do you think lyrics are written! Everyone has emotions and if somebody didn’t. They’d never be-able to love, have friends, have relationships, How could they show how they felt towards someone, They couldn’t even feel empty because they can’t feel happiness, angry, depressed, sad..

Wake up and figure out that emo is one of the stupidest things to stereotype someone as.

I’ve actually got a heap of anger in me tonight; I’m having the worst few days to be completely honest, not only am I sick but I’ve got some really complicated issues going on in my life. I dumped Kittie because she wasn’t making me happy, I know it seems stupid but it kept hurting me, knowing in my head that she’ll be 18 this year and she probably doesn’t need some 16 year old depressed kid hanging off her arm. I know it seems sad to admit but deep down, I know it’s true we probably weren’t going to last much longer anyway so I had to do what was right in my eyes and dump her before she get to attached. We’re still pretty close but I know it’s hurt her deep down and she’s still not understanding why I done it.

Obviously this isn’t the reason why I’m angry. Mums been really bitchy lately, no clue why but its actually really getting to me, It’s really actually giving me the idea of moving out of home again, home is really starting to shit me, it actually makes me feel sick to the gut to call it home, it’s far from a home in my eyes and I’m sick of how I’m treated, yea I may seem like some stupid kid to all the readers out there and people always say teens hate living at home but I don’t see myself as a normal teenager, I see myself as far from a normal teenager. I know I may be immature at some times but I know that I’m a mature young adult and that I can make decisions for myself, I know I’ve made some wrong decisions but isn’t life based on being able to figure out what you’re meant to really do instead of fucking up, I’ve got to figure life out for myself and stop having you pretty much hold my fucking hand every decision I make.

I wouldn’t say that was a rant, I just want to be-able to be independent and get out of home, I think I’d be a lot happier out of home.

Just a quick note also, new blog theme should be soon, awaiting my vector for the header

I killed the prom queen final show was fucking amazing, I’ve never seen something so beautiful in my life, it went so fucking off, the 2hour wait in the cold was worth it, I don’t have any photos but i’ll be sure to find some because the only photos I currently have are stuck on my mobile

I was riding the train to the city to get to the concert when i had an old couple sit with me and they begun talking about some family issues and how someones wife was “broken but needed to be fixed with love and support” You could tell this woman was religious and a nice friendly person, I wanted to actually hug her when she said that because now adays when something goes wrong they just get a divorce, Yea maybe you’re not meant to be together but thats why you don’t take marriage so lightly and you get into marriage when you’re 100% sure they’re the one and that you’d work everything out with them instead of just pissing off on them and causing alot more problems.

Anyway, My theme should be done in afew days and i’ll keep blogging and i’ll be sure to find photos of the event

Sorry that I haven’t been able to post lately, I’ve focused on school and everything around me, I’m beginning to write heaps more music and i’ve actually got some recordings of some sessions, i’m not going to release them because they’re not my lyrics and i’ve actually got some of my own content that i’m actually going to try “scream” in afew days. I got afew tips from morph and i’m actually pretty happy with how things are going with my music so far, i’m actually going to publish some lyrics that i’ve written and put time into. So here they are.

“I will not Demise,
Death before dishonour,
You cannot bring me to your level,
The low of lows,
Can’t even keep a promise,
You threw away my love,
Sealed with a kiss,
What kind of a person are you,
Throwing away “the one”
All those things,
Just the past,
You’ll never get it again,
What i gave you,
That feeling of love,
Death before dishonour,
Bitch. “

I know that they’re pretty deep and hurtful lyrics but they’re from a dark part of life that I just experienced and I don’t want to publish this because since then i’ve written so much better and why dwell on something when I can produce something so much better and something that wont make me upset or think about what happened. If you’re a regular reader you’ll understand the lyrics alot better but if not, i recomend reading afew entries before this one and you’ll pretty much pick up the whole thing.

Anyway, this blog entry actually does have a reason behind it and i’m going to get to it now. Whilst on the public bus today, i sat up the back with the usual group and we’ve always got kids from the local junior high school on the bus with us and they were happily chatting away, my mind was adrift and i was just gathering all my thoughts of the day and what may happen when a girl begun talking about how this boy liked a girl but she was saying that she was to good for him. I actually wanted to tell this girl to get off her fucking high horse and have some common sense, everyone is equal and you cannot judge people or relationships like that, nobody is better then anyone. I just thought to myself on the bus. “Wow she’s so fucking mindless”

Anyway, I’m off to work on my new blog theme, I’ll write a blog post about how prom queen is on saturday night.