JamesOzAmbitions of A Willing Teenager

Wow, i’m really shitting myself over this, I still remember sitting in the conference room when we were selecting uniforms, now look. I’m starting year 10 tomorrow at a completely new school with people i don’t even know. I went and looked at the school site afew days ago, What a joke it was, They had portables on our “oval” They had no carpet in them, They were installing air-con that day & the walls were covered in rude words, phone numbers and a bunch of idiots tags.

I now realize, School is going to be a joke. For the first term, Maybe even the first semester.

I’ll have to see how it all goes, I’m scared to the shit and i don’t even know anyone in my class or what i need to bring to school. I’m going to be a loner

Not feeling to well currently, So i’m about to update my iPod then try to get some sleep. I’ll write about my first day tomorrow.

-James

I have opinions, Everyone does. Does not having enough opinions make you fail by not being heard? by not speaking out when you should? not standing up for whats right? How about not even having a clue on many things.

Whilst i was having a shave with my music blasting, I looked into the mirror.
Lyrics going through my head, It reminded me of people i knew, So open minded, they seemed to know so much shit, they had a opinion on things and brought it to light in a way that sort of slaps you in the face. I’ve never really had a opinion on things. I actually think
that i’m sort of boring because of that, I only have interest in music and Amber? I have dreams i’d love to follow but i know i need to do alot to make them happen. I want to be-able to speak out and have people listen and respect my views and understand in a way alot of people seem to do, Not to be a god, Not to be a arrogant prick.

I have opinions and people around me get told what i’m usually thinking. I don’t talk shit and i don’t try to be
hurtful towards someone else. I respect views and take
it all in, I think i’d make a great lawyer, As peter said, I’ve taken everything literally and even proved him wrong in fights from it,
Its not complete law material but it shows you know how to use whats said in a fight-back sort of way? I’ve had a interest in law for probably a year now and i’d love to get into it, I wouldn’t practise for long, My dream is my own record company that i can attorney for and run.

I guess i really just wish i had more views on mainstream sort of shit, like world issues.

Ralph Waldo Emerson – Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson – Every artist was first an amateur.
Henry Ford – Whether you think you can or whether you think you can’t, you’re right.
George Bernard Shaw – You see things; and you say “Why?” But I dream things that never were; and I say “Why not?”
Chinese Proverb – The journey is the reward.
Elizabeth Kubler Ross – People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.

Heres afew quotes that sort of catch my eye. I’m not sure if they’re used alot or are famous but i believe in alot of these, I’m not sure why, They’re inspirational to me and give me bigger hopes in my dreams and afew remind me of my life/how its been. You can only dream…

I had my dosage upped for my pills. Just to a full pill, He mentioned i don’t need to dissolve it in water because i can take it normally, i went alright for the first few days but when i went to have my pill afew hours ago, i was drinking with it in my mouth and my tongue got in the way and i couldn’t get it down my throat, It begun dissolving in my mouth, It had the most horrible taste which i couldn’t seem to get rid of for awhile. I was also meant to get my uniform, We left to go get it, We had trouble getting a car spot. Finally got in, Got into the shop, It was packed with screaming kids and boxes of uniforms everywhere, We got to a rep and she went out the back to find my order, She comes out a half hour later and tells me they’ve lost it and that i should leave my mobile number so they can call me when they’ve found it. Now to hope i’ve got a uniform for wednesday.

$500 worth of school books there What a load of shit.

Today is the 3rd month i’ve been with my beautiful girlfriend, Amber Claire.

To bad i really can’t do much because at the moment we’re so far apart but she knows
I’d have something really special planned for the both of us and that i’d be there if i could,

i’ll have to make it up to her for 6 months ;) Flight to Western Australia - maybe? :)

Only time will tell, Love you amber claire <3

I’ve been sick for close to a week and a half and it seemed to have gotten worse in the middle, Then i sort of realised its not going to help if i sing, so i had to stop singing for afew days, Which sucked, especially in the shower, Today i’ve had my coughing fits but my throat hasn’t been as bad, i’ve been sucking on butter menthols so i think thats helped, i can finally sing though  Not sure if i should though and risk becoming sicker, wont hurt to sing just alittle?